Today is my dad's birthday. He would have turn 75 is he's still here. And, I still miss him even though he's been gone for more than 11 years. I think when you loose a love one you will never stop missing them.
Many, many moments come and go where I thought, "Oh, how I wish he was here to see this or to experience this moment." I missed him at my wedding. Wished he could have met my hubby. Missed him when I went home for Christmas. Missed him at my brother's wedding. I wish he could see how his little girl finally grow up and do well. And, I wish my niece Shakira could have met him. He would so spoil her rotten.
So many memories comes through my mind as I typed this post. I have this picture framed and displayed in our living room. This was from Christmas eve 1994. It was the last time all of us together as complete family for the holidays. After that there's always one of us missing as we all have different things going on.
It took me over a year before I finally fully accepted he was gone. Because at that time of his passing I was already in the States that many time I felt like he was just away in Indonesia instead of really gone. During that first year, I could burst into tears at any time at random time. Now, I only cried when I feel melancholy or nostalgic. Like right now. You'd think after 11 years I won't cry anymore....
I like to think that he is up in heaven now playing with Oscar & Ceasar, his rottweilers and hopefully with Milo my pug that I lost back in 2004. I imagine he spend his time hanging out with his old friends and watching over us. To dad, wherever you are, I still think of you and miss you. Happy birthday, dad.
I know many of you come here for crafty projects, but for today, I want to take the time to share my thoughts and feeling about my dad.
I do have a card up on Paper Made Bakery blog. Here's the sneak peek of my card and you can see the full card at Paper Made Bakery.
Thank you for letting me share my personal story. Have a blessed day everyone.